Get over it

Over the past weekend....or week I have learned a few things about myself. I learned that I am a fan of Lisa Bevere. I am so glad I heard her speak. She was very inspiring. It really got me thinking too. The events that transpired over the week/weekend where somewhat stressful. I felt overwhelmed. I felt betrayed. I felt unappreciated. I needed cake...or fries would do. I needed to stop medicating myself with food........tomorrow.

I thought about all these things. I would even say I pondered them in a biblical fashion. I think that maybe God might have known what he was doing when he put together my temperment. I took everything that happened to me, and then some, very personal. I was hurt, maybe even wounded. I felt my feelings, which I always do. I don't stifle. They are always right there. Just ask Dan. He will tell you about all my feelings and how intensely I feel them. He gets to hear it all. Lucky Dan.

In a few days they are all gone. I am left mildly irritated and resolved. I let my emotions wash over me and I let them go. I am not a grudge holder. I may freak out, but rest assured it won't take me long to come back to some reason. I think I am at the tail end of my stress filled week. I am feeling more forgiving, more resolute. I am thankful that I am made this way. It works somehow. The things I am skilled at are not something you can disconnect from easily. To do them well I have to be fully engaged which means sometimes getting my feelings stomped on. But God has given me the ability to get up, look folks in the eye and keep on going. I don't need closure from them because God has granted me acceptance. I in turn can pay it forward.

Lisa B was right this weekend. God uses what he already placed into your hand. He uses what you are good at. So I will let him and I will move on.