I wanna be jujitsu....

What is it about marriage that automatically makes you feel old? It could be that you have or are a challenging spouse. It could be that you are officially "settled". Whatever it is, I don't like it. I remember when I was dating Dan the man how young I felt. I really was much younger chronologically, but there was a feeling that went with it. A feeling that after 11 years and 4 kids is long gone. Now we trade advice about which energy drinks will get you through the day and what kid needs what.

I think a lot of the old feeling has to do with having little kids. You are mostly tired and haggard when you have little kids. Then when they are older you feel old because you can't believe how old they are. Its a vicious cycle. Youth is truly fleeting.

I have been feeling like sweat pants lately. You know your favorite pair? Those pants or that item of clothing that is all worn in and so snuggly you never want to take it off, yeah that's me. Of course I get to be the favorite and that is theoretically better, but in the practical application it sucks. Who wants to be sweat pants?

I want to be that brand new pair of shoes that you just have to have the minute you see them. They are cute, trendy, and go with everything. You wear them all the time and show them off to your friends. You LOVE them and tell everyone as much. That's what I would like to be.

Unfortunately Dan doesn't wear sweats and isn't that into shoes so the metaphors are lost on him. Maybe I want to be jujitsu. He is all excited about jujitsu. Its all he talks about lately. How cool it is, how excited he is to go to his next class. He plans all of his free time around it. Dan is like that. He gets fired up about new things, but I know it will pass. He always likes things when they are new and he overdoses on them and never wants them again. I have seen this happen with everything from Big Macs to working out. He just doesn't get balance.

So I guess its good he has stuck with me this long. I still don't want to be sweat pants. He used to read my blog too, when it was new! Just call me jujitsu.......